On the precipice of war

In the recent times,
I realise that I am being too nice to some people.
Like really too nice.
Initially,
when I am still young and naive,
I do not mind.
Seriously.
They ask me for help,
they ask me to do things,
and
they ask me to cover their ass.
I do not mind helping.
Yes,
I do enjoy helping people.
It helps to cleanse the sins that I have collected over the years.
Then it came to a point where they became totally dependent on me.
Like every eensy weensy little thing:
It's ok,
I know you can help me!
Wee!
Hooray for the hero!
Recently it catch on me that I am just not being appreciated.
When they need me,
they find me.
If not,
I am being set aside.
Forgotten like an old doll.
It sucks to know that you are just not appreciated.
The worst thing,
when I am in trouble,
the same people who are dependent on me will come up with
1,000,001 reasons
saying they cannot help me.
Like thanks...

What would you do if you realise that people are taking advantage of you?
What would you do if you realise that people are too dependent on you?
What would you do if you realise that people are not appreciative of you?

I should stop being so nice.
I cant help it.
It has become a habit to help people.

Oh well,
another month gone.
I only remembered that I had fun on my birthday weekend.
The rest of the month is a daze.

May coming right up.
So not looking forward to it.
Assignment deadlines and class presentation are so back to back.
Shit.
I need to breathe.

I need to stop being so nice
so that people will stop being too dependent on me
and at least appreciate everything
I have done all these while.